Someone so sensitive. so loving so sweet. I wish you weren't so nice to all the girls you meet but I know it's just your bedside manner. It makes me feel super uncomfortable, I know I've gotten a crush on you but it's fine since you are disappearing for a while. I know by then, My mind would have settled.

Your sweetness is so overwhelming, it hurts me inside. I just don't want to ruin this awesome friendship. I hate myself for falling for you, for believing you are like that for mutual love. It's only your bedside manner, the usual ways you act with girls. It's my own fault for assuming too much, I hate how immature I am. I want to stay friends with you but cannot believe such a sensitive guy exists.

For the first time in my life, I can say I met someone who is super sensitive and sweet and loving. I don't know why it's making me cry and sad but I really didn't believe such a guy like you would exist. You are a big older than me but your sensitive ways have affected me so. I wish it didn't.

I didn't want to crush on you, really. It just happened, I honestly did not do anything whatsoever. The thought did pop in my head about how certain things would go down quite well. It was just a passing thought and then I realised, oh no I've got a crush on you. It's so scary. I never wanted it at all, someone as sweet as you deserves someone better and more beautiful. I don't deserve someone as great and sensitive as you.

I wish I didn't fall for you. Really I do. It's so painful because I know rejection will be the next step and I'm all too familiar with that outcome. :(.