What is it I'm feeling? I never knew office wear could be so... eye-catching. He came back in his blue long sleeved shit. I'm drawn to stare at it but I feel weird doing so. Ha ha, It's probably just looks nice, It's also the first time I have seen him in his office clothes. Guh, my heart beat so fast, not because of a shirt but because of a stupid "V" Drink I consumed hurhur(or is it?).


This is some random mumblings no need to take it so seriously. Apart from the fact I have seen him half-naked... GAH! My eyes! Ok I better stop before I go crazy and think too much.

27/08/08

I feel hurt, you don't trust me. You think I would go against my morals and do undesirable things. Or are you just scared at what I would find? I'll tell you that I'm loyal and trustworthy granted I am pretty dense but your emotions are my biggest factors. I want to see you smile, heck I want to see everyone smile. I don't want dreary stoned faces.

I want laughter and smiles.




















I want your attention.

The Peacemaker

Your Enneagram type is NINE (aka "The Mediator")

"I am at peace"

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

• If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't
like expectations or pressure.
• I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
• Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
• Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
• Ask me questions to help me get clear.
• Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
• Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
• I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
• Let me know you like what I've done or said.
• Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a NINE
• being nonjudgmental and accepting
• caring for and being concerned about others
• being able to relax and have a good time
• knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
• my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator (doesn't sound very right considering what I have done)
• my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
• being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a NINE
• being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
• being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
• being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
• being confused about what I really want
• caring too much about what others will think of me
• not being listened to or taken seriously

NINEs as Children Often
• feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
• tune out a lot, especially when others argue
• are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

NINEs as Parents
• are supportive, kind, and warm
• are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

Okay I'll admit it right now, What I said in my previous-previous post was out of line and an over-dramatisation of a single situation. To my two close friends, I'll apologize to you right now.


I am truly Sorry, sorry for calling you derogative/insulting terms. What I did was very out of line and nobody should be subjected to name-calling no matter how dire or far-fetched any situation may be. It is very short-sighted of me to label you as whores bastards because of one incident.


I am wincing right now as I think back on that post and how emotionally charged that post was. I cannot come up with any reasons or excuses to validate my actions so I will not attempt to do so and I can only rectify the mistake since what's done is done.


I hope (both of) you will forgive me for my words, I know It hurts to have someone close to you become nasty so I will not pressurise you to forgive me. If don't want to forgive me then it's fine too because problems like these cannot be solved with a simple apology.


So I'll end post on a sombre note. I won't be a childish person and go all ballistic about what has happened, I can take a bit of harsh words so do not hold back if you have to.