Dude....

You read too much into my nickname, (=.=).
Your taking this waaay too seriously, I vent because I've got something to get off my chest. I have more than one emotion you know. I mean you got worried too when you tried to contact me when I was MIA-ing, very same reason no? This is the same feeling I have. I was afraid of loosing a friend.

If you keep defending her, there is no point either. I know we are all her friend and thats what friends do but look if she can threaten to throw a shoe at someone when she's drunk who knows what she will do next. She acts so aggressively towards us during this period, what will happen in the next time she gets intoxicated, it can spiral downwards from there. I'm WORRIED for ALL OF US.

You may say then, we'll just keep her away from alcohol from her. But CAN WE? She does this often and who knew she can be such a depressive drunk. I feared she just lost it.She wasn't play fighting with us my friend. She was ready to move.

I'm not angry, I'm worried for her now. Because I can never look at her the same sorry. I'm gonna be more wary of her when she is drunk.

Drunken behaviour can range a whole spectrum, hers just took a turn for the worse.
People say when people are intoxicated, the truth emerges. Secrets are revealed and lies broken. I fear that this might be what she truly feels inside. She bottles all her emotions inside and she bursts.

We've never realised how she has been hurting, It's been a long time since she was with someone so it must have manifested itself this way. It very frustrating when your sexuality doesn't work to your advantage either. We must understand that to her, Love is a vital part of her life. This much I summarised, with the help of another mind.

My dear friend, If your reading this. I care about you too but your behaviour was a very rude awakening. I just cannot fathom what happened the night before. I'm still reeling from the shock, I'm sorry for not knowing how you felt inside. I was listening to everything you were saying but please if you cannot obtain what you want, don't go the easy way and down more alcohol; because you ended up getting sick from the alcohol overload. I was so frightened for you and for everyone. I was questioning myself that If I tried to help you, Your gonna bite the hand that feeds so I refrain from helping you. I was scared shitless when you started to shiver and your eyes got unfocused. I was so worried.

I care for her too, but the way I do it is different from normal people. You have to understand this. I don't think any of you will actually read this so this entry wil just be a summary and a way for me to collect my thoughts and try to get myself to understand the situation better.